Yesterday evening was filled with mixed emotions.

  Pure joy filled  our hearts as we officially completed 9 months of training which seemed non-rewarding at times. There came a period when field engineers had field camps every successive week towards the end of the course and looking back, i'm quite amazed at how many of us pulled through without much complaints. Some will say that we had gotten used to the ruggedness of field camps so much so that it was part of our everyday lives but i think that it was our strong friendship that pulled us through the pain eventually. Also, without much encouragement from my friends in the course, I would have been out of course especially when my knee was rather badly injured. Seeing how many mates showed me the support and concern somehow provided me with the additonal strength to carry on with the course then.Of course my family gave me much support too. Many people thought that i would be put out of course due to my knee injury when I first got injured, including myself too. But miracles do happen and I am very grateful for this good fortune that dawned upon me when i needed it most.

  I felt a tinge of sadness too because the commissioning parade was the last activity that all of us will take part together.

  haha but I'm quite happy now because I've a one week break which would be followed by many more festive holidays! can't wait!
and Newcastle's playing against Portsmouth tonight they betta win!

from a chao recruit



to 2lt khoo qing sheng!

Back from crescendo. It was mentally testing but i survived!
Things to look forward to! - soccer soccer and more soccer!
                                               - standard chartered marathon!
                                               -commissioning
                                               -christmas!
                                               -2009!

   This week we had Ex Wolf, where a platoon of 17 cadets have to work through the night and create a minefield of like 540 AP mines= 540 mine holes. the worse thing was that we had to create this minefield in a waterlogged lallang plantation.

  Anw I still have 3 more exercises to go, meaning field camps all the way. inclduing 2 weeks in thailand omg.
 
  Anw i had a chat with some of my fellow platoon mates and we all agreed that we were suited for chiong sua rather than very detailed planning and execution. Maybe i should have gone to infantry haha no need to think. After all, spending 10 months in the army has already dissolved my braincells. 

  Yesterday i did guard duty and was on sentry duty so I had a lil' chat with the rp beside me. Had a very interesting conversation with him. We talked about ghosts(haha), and of course shared common rants about the organisation and its regulars.

  If there was one thing i have learnt so far in army, it would be to forgive and forget because everyone makes mistakes.

Hai. Im on a 2 game losing streak on bets. lost 33 bucks alr. a lil' sian.
a summary on matches i played on :  villareal 0-0 man utd( 20 bucks on man u win..argh)
                                                                    portsmouth 0 -6 man city( 5 bucks on portsmouth win..wtf)
                                                                   chelsea 2-0 stoke( 20 on chelsea -1.5, won 18bucks)
                                                                   man utd 3-0 alborg( 20 on man utd -1.5, won 14 bucks)
                                                                   cluj 0-0 chelsea (20 on chelsea-1.5)
                                                                   arsenal 1-1 sunderlan (20 on arse nal -1.5)

i think i shall stop for a month. then strike while the iron's hot. like whack 50 bucks on aston villa win while the odds are around 2 bucks. ha! now shall focus on the 4 exercises coming up soon.

okay singapore pools, i lose. HAHA

                                                                  

Because when life's dealt you an acl tear, I've gotta be strong.
Even when there's only 3 months to officership, I need to be strong.
And if surgery's the only way for me to play football again, then the more I need to be strong.

Though its depressing, but I will be strong. And I will make a come back.

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holy. lucky its just a bad strain. looks like im in.

  There are a few ppl in my platoon i really despise. Come on, whats the point of being pessimistic often and overly critical of every little thing, every little mistake someone in the platoon does somehow turns into a major issue. And then rumours start to spread about how irresponsible that guy is. Things such as joking bout someone's boo-boo behind his back by saying his briefing was a 'joke' and expecting ppl around u to laugh. fuck off. but sadly this is what i see in ocs. definitely its just those few guys who are super selfish and would just cheer silently in their heart every time someone ooc. despicable. worse, these few ppl will just slack off once instructors are gone and will talk loudest once they appear. worst, these ppl think they are better than specialists. but actually i rather trust a man than these ppl.

  Fortunately, there are a few ppl in my platoon whom i truly respect and this shows that human beings are different in own ways. sadly for some, they chose to be losers..

 hello all. this week i nearly ooc-ed. it was fucking scary and depressing, after all the hard work and fucking brunei trip. my arm became slightly numb and very weak after the brunei trip but i continued to train on. What was scary was that i was only able to do 3 or 4 pull ups compared to 16 before the brunei trip. So i fell out of ippt halfway when i experienced a sharp pain in my triceps on Tuesday. I went to the MO and he did some simple exercises with my arm. what the heck
Throughout the day, I felt quite distant from my platoon. A feeling you always get when you fall out, ppl usually think you malinger but what the heck.
Luckily as the week progressed, I started achieving more pull ups. what the -.-. Today had PT for about 1.5 hours and when I did about 100 dips at a certain station,  instructor Norman asked me whether i was shagged. Of course i said "yes" to be honest and he tried to force me to stop. To my surprise, he even remembered i was the guy with the injured arm and even my name. wow.

i feel really fortunate to have instructors who really want to see us graduate as officers and not kick us out of course. They have not tekan-ed us yet and were really patient in explaining the practical details thus far.  Though  I'm a  damn slow learner of  demolition and explosives, the instructors were super patient with me and i felt damn guilty today. haha but whatever tmr i'll wake up and not feel guilty alr haha!

It was totally different from what i expected from this course, in a good way. =)

 yay i overcame Brunei trip.                                                                

                                                                The water source. no choice.
 
                                                                                                                                                 fucking big Brunei red ass ant.
zzz i was bitten by it while attempting to hide my litter away haha under a dead fall in the middle of the night while on sentry duty in the jungles of Brunei. Brunei jungle houses infinite number of such ants.


                                                      
      no joke. up the knoll down the knoll which i think is elevated at 60 degrees. then imagine fbo in addition to 72hours of food while navigating.
    My right arm was numb for 2 days after i returned from the jungle, my knee hurt alot and i was fucking shag and wet throughout the 4 days. poor infantry dudes-9 days of jungle.
    The weather was freaking hot at 33 degrees at only 9am!! and it fell to like 20deg at night plus rain! holy shit.

  The r&r was quite boring except for moments when i caught Hancock at just $4.50 at the cinema and i bought this portugal replica jersey.

  im just so glad to be back.

 

  brunei, here we go..

  anw last night was an enjoyable social night held at Timbre. drank alot. and had great fun with platoon 2. and i'm posted to combat engineer for my pro term. I heard its siong, but i'll defy the odds and commission. argh i didnt get into armour!

  13 december. make it, work it. dont give up!

  hi all. friday was my birthday. anyway i caught this movie on my birthday and it sucks.
    sucks.

anyway, that night i went to this club called home with ahyi they all. It plays rock music instead of dirty raunchy songs so ppl were just jumping up and down. haha but i felt tired so i just sat by the side and sip on my drink.
we caught croatia vs turkey and luckily i slept for most of the 115minutes! haha so i didnt miss the drama and awww it just shows how cruel the game can get.

anyway i really enjoyed myself this weekend. i played a soccer match, watched soccer matches, ate alot, went out alot. yupp that's all.


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  ohya anw i was reminded of exercise scorpion king where digging for 3 days with only 4 hours of sleep was a mental torture. i remember at one point in time, i nearly wanted to break down and i asked myself 'wtf am i doing all this shit?'. i could sleep when standing by just closing my eyes.

  but i just kept on digging.
  it was really painful.

It is once again another classic lonely night in ocs where you have 4 hours of admin time to spare and cannot book out. 
Its canteen break now and everyone's like gone. so its just me alone sitting in my cosy bunk in front of the computer.
my good friend, christopher xie, is beside me busy eating his maggi mee goreng haha.


i really cannot wait to book out on friday. ha its my birthday la. and i cannot afford to stay back.
wah im really bored. sighs. i want to watch euro and support portugal since i placed bets on them winning euro08!
anyway these photos below are really nice i feel.


pure ecstasy. 


respect for the game.
   

no it isn't happening. neither is it fun. omg this movie "The Happening" scared the balls out of me HAHA. imagine the intro to the movie being a girl stabbing her neck with a hairpin omg! rofl! and i watched it on friday the 13th hohoho!

sian i thought next week could be a relaxed week before my birthday book out, but %#$# told us we need to retake our ippt and soc. take then take lor.

i think i shall sleep a little only tonight;with teams like italy holland france playing, how can anyone be sleeping? haha.

and i shall sleep tomoro while ushering parents to the ocs commissioning parade ground. sian. i pray that the next 6 months fly by real fast and it will be my turn.




 my new boots haha.

sighs. its social night 2 weeks from now and i haven gotten a date. HAHA. i've no idea whom to ask.

sighs. its another slack night at officer chalet school after returning from navex.

my muscles are aching all over.